6 days later
As a follow up to my last post, I was largely correct. The steps quickly took me from a point of obsession back down to life, mainly being better by the end of the weekend. I am going to continue my steps however as I have a great need for any peacefulness I an get in life at the moment. I have to say that this has been one of the worst months I’ve had in years. It’s one of those times in life where I keep hoping things will get better but the rabbit hole keeps getting deeper. All I can do is hold on, keep doing what I know is good such as work and school, and pray for the tides of change to come quickly. The hardest part of it all is being powerless and helpless…unable to comfort those I love, unable to change the things that break my hope, and unable to overcome obstacles that should be manageable. Perhaps I’m the one that needs to create change again, I am just waiting on God’s word to step. Until then I will continue one day at a time. I still feel something close on the horizon…either wonderful or terrible, I’m not sure. I pray for the best and prepare for the worst.
